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Sometimes I want to punch my lit teacher in the face. I never would, obviously because I'm a pacifist of sorts, if you will and Im not one for violence. Some people, though, deserve a big punch in the face. Like Stephan, and Yeomans for example. Those two ruin my day everyday. And then there's Helmet Hair who makes my day everyday. He doesn't even have to try, really. All he has to do is smile at me and I forget anything that was bothering me before. Yesterday was an off day and I was feeling sort of down. That was until he called me and talked to me for an hour. And he talked to Bob, who was fascinated by the fact that Helmet Hair fishes. I have a feeling Bob liked him more then he ever liked Stephan, who is quiet and sort of rude around adults. My dad wasn't a big fan of Stephan either. My dad isn't a big fan of anyone to be completely honest. But I digress...

I might get me some helmet hair after school today. I'm not sure what we're going to do, though. maybe a movie? like some sort of date? Im not sure. But last night he surprised the hell out of me. Talking to my mom's boyfriend, and then asking me if I wanted to hang out, just me and him. I'm super excited, but I'm also mega nervous. I'm not gonna lie. I think we may go to a movie tomorrow with Kaylee. Maybe that's what we'll do tonight, actually instead of tomorrow....but anyway. I'm glad to go with Kaylee. She's one of the only people (other then Baige) that's happy for me instead of angry, or upset.

You have no idea how hard it is to keep my hands to myself when you're around. I want so badly to touch him, hug him, hold his hand. but i won't. because that would kill you, and I think I've hurt you enough as it is. You don't deserve such a thing. But it's hard, let me tell ya. Honestly, it's the main reason I ride with him when we snowmobile. It gives me an excuse to hold onto him and not let go without everyone thinking thoughts of betrayal. I don't blame you, by the way. I'd feel betrayed too. But we can't help it, and you of all people should know what it's like to have to contain your feelings.

But it's that time, again. Lit is over, and I'm going to lunch with my boys. Little C's. mhmhmhm. mmmmmmmmm

I'll continue my endless ranting later. ta-ta for now.