Have you ever felt all alone? Like you're sitting in class and you just feel like crying? Theres so much inside of you that you feel you need to say, but nobody to say it to. You could, but somehow it would get around. The next day everyone would know. But on the other hand, you have people to talk to, but if you told them what you felt, it would send your world down a long road to no-where. I suppose this is why I have this blog. I know people read it, but I don't even care. I have things to say, but I'm terrified of saying them. Sometimes I think if I say them out loud, it will ease the pain welling up inside of me...and it does. Temporarily. But when everyone else finds out (they always do), I feel even worse then when I kept it inside. Sometimes I wish I had one person I could tell everything to and know that they would keep my secret, and not judge me based on it. Honestly, I've felt like I had that person a few times, but they always end up stabbing me in the back. I haven't cried in weeks, and I was finally starting to feel stronger. But now I feel it happening again. Why can't I just be happy, and stay that way?

Life is so confusing. I love it, but I hate it at the same time. It's not fair, either. They always tell you that, but I never understood until things got rough.
People suck. End of story. I suck, you suck, everyone sucks. We're liars, cheaters, stealers, lovers, haters, perverts, and we're downright stupid. We hurt those closest to us, and we pick on others to make ourselves feel stronger. I hate having so much to say, but not knowing how to say it.