Because after all, you're my wonderwall.

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Help. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like everyone has this massive hatred towards me all of a sudden, and I really don't know why. Sometimes it's too much to handle. I can only take so much. Please, stop throwing your daggers. My heart has had enough.

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

I realize you don't care anymore. The feelings you used to have aren't there. I ruined it. I hurt you, I know. and I'm so sorry. There are no words I could say to make you understand. No ways to show you how much I really am sorry. But you should know that I still have feelings for you. They aren't the same, but they're just as strong. I hurt you, Glenn. But I hurt myself too. I live with it everyday. The agonizing pain in my chest everytime I think about what I did to you. I thought it would be better by now. I thought maybe I would forget after a while. Or maybe I thought things would work themselves out, so I gave up. Like you gave up. I'm sorry. Don't give up.

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how

I hate how you've changed. I can hardly look you in the eye anymore. Your not the same guy I used to know. But I'm still the same girl. I find out everything. You should know that by now. So when were you going to tell me that you get high all the time? And when are you going to tell me why? Does it make it go away? Does it help you forget about me and everything we used to be? Because I've got to tell you, I've tried just about everything to make this throbbing in my heart disappear. But not that. I won't sink that low. I'm better than that. I thought you were too. I know you are better than that.

Because maybe
you're gonna be the one that saves me...

Oh, Nick. I can tell you're trying. You're trying so hard to understand how I'm feeling. You're there for me, no matter what. I tell you things that I know you don't want to hear, and I cry my heart out in front of you over another guy. It must kill you. I'm so sorry. You deserve someone whole enough to give you her entire being. I'm sorry that I can't do that for you. I'm trying, I really am. It's so complicated. I want to tell you everything i'm feeling. I know you would understand. But the problem is, I don't know how to say it. I don't understand why he still gets to me after all this time. I don't understand why all I can feel is pain when I think about him. I don't understand why it's so hard for me NOT to think about him. But you have to know that I love you. I really do. You're the best friend that I've ever had and I can't thank you enough for everything you've done for me, and everything that you're still doing. We'll get this, sooner or later. Slowly but surely, baby. I'll come around. I'll be whole, and I will be yours. I promise. Please don't give up on me.

And after all
you're my wonderwall.

Sometimes, when you look me in the eyes, I forget. About everything. You take all the hurt away, with just a look. I don't know how you do it, but it keeps me alive. You keep me breathing. You're the reason I get out of bed in the morning. You honestly have no idea what you've done for me, just by listening and letting me cry. It takes maturity to deal with something this complicated, and just the fact that you're trying makes me love you even more. Thank you. So god damn much.

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

I know I messed everything up with us. I know you changed because of me. But I was just watching out for myself. I'm selfish, and I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how

I don't know what's harder; knowing you don't care anymore, or thinking that I care too much. Even after all this time, I can't forget you. Everywhere I go, something is there to remind me. Remind me of you, of us. Our past. It was short, but it was sweet. We'll never get it back. Maybe that's what I'm having a hard time grasping. You were another significant chapter in my life. One that has changed it forever. I don't know if I should thank you, or hate you for that. Maybe both. So thank you Glenn, for everything. For our amazing story, even though there was no happy ending. But I think I found my happy ending. I hope you find yours. You'll always be my thunder.

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Nick. I know this is probably really hard for you to read. I know this whole situation is hard for you. I'm sorry that I put you through this. I really am.

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me
And after an
You're my wonderwall

My heart is broken. But you knew that going in, and wanted it anyway. I think if anyone can fix it, it's you. You once told me not to doubt you. And I won't. Ever. I love you.

Said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me

You're gonna be the one that saves me.