I have an idea of sorts...

everytime I write in this (which has been everyday, lately) I'm going to include something that made me happy that day. Most likely at the end. I'll do it here, when I'm done ranting. Start it now. :)

Things are slowly getting better, I think. You aren't as distant as you were before. You're talking more, and laughing. I don't think you realize how much I miss your laugh. It's been a while since you've laughed at anything remotely funny. Usually it's only when something bad happens to someone else. But now you laugh with us, instead of at us.
Honestly, I'm glad you don't read this. You'd be devasted if you read half the thing I say about you on here. Like what I'm about to say now.
I went to a movie with Kaylee and Helmet Hair last night. We saw Taken. We thought it was going to be scary, and even you know how I am with scary movies. I need a person on either side of me, holding my hand. So that's how we sat. Me in the middle, with my two best friends on either side of me, both of my hands grasped tightly. Taken was amazing. But it wasn't scary. I held Kaylee's hand 90% of the movie. But Helmet Hair refused to let go. Not that I minded. (that's the part that would bother you the most, I think.) I thought I was hurting him, so I let go, and he frowned at me and reached for my hand again. You never did that. You never wanted to hold my hand for an ENTIRE movie. You always said you were too uncomfortable. Anyway...as he was holding my hand, butterflies initiated some sort of war in my stomach. And he kept rubbing his thumb gently on the back of hand, sending shivers down my back. It was one of the best nights I've had in a while, and I can tell you that I've never had those kinds of feelings just by holding somebodies hand.
Kaylee said his smile reminds her of Edward Cullen with how it makes your heart melt and you instantly can't concentrate on anything other then his adorable features. I must say I agree. That's the thing that made me fall for him the hardest, I think. The way he looks down at me and gives me that smile. I can't get enough of it. I can't get enough of him.

here goes the happiness thing...
today: realizing that time heals all wounds. Things will be better, soon.